tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7095763.post108612201363249323..comments2023-10-11T22:49:40.128-03:00Comments on emerging sideways...: too much information - part onebobbiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09236324338161051924noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7095763.post-42239805783055838812007-01-02T20:09:00.000-04:002007-01-02T20:09:00.000-04:00"Recovery works if you work it."
Anyone in recove..."Recovery works if you work it."<br /><br />Anyone in recovery circles has heard that so many times before.<br /><br />One of my many character defects is to take back my will with all its fears, insecurities and pride. I use it to blot out stuff around me so I can just numb out the world.<br /><br />Frequently this takes the form of going on another binge eatting spree or lapsing into one of my many months' long depresions. These are so frequent to also earn me the bipolar diagnosis. It never ceases to amaze me how similar the threads of the addictions run together. Whnever I try to control one of my multiple addictions I get the "jackpots" I've heard from others in other fellowships talk about. I hurt so much at how isolated and hopelessly independent I have allowed myself to become. But then in an instance my Higher Power said "ask for help." A google search and here I am posting this. <br /><br />The point is whenever I try to run the show I get the pain and suffering only an addict can understand. The cycle of shame and acting out continues. I hit a wall today and my High Power was there to catch me. He pointed me to your site for some reason. Your suffering,honesty and willing to share your pain and daily reliance on the God of your Understanding have helped me right now beyond words. <br /><br />Thank you for your inspiration. I cocnclude by offering my anonymous email address for any who wish to chat and recovery and spiritual growth.<br /><br />Your worth it, so work it<br /><br />Sincerely yours in recovery,<br /><br />JoeAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7095763.post-26938630699365609262006-09-30T11:16:00.000-03:002006-09-30T11:16:00.000-03:00I have nothing but the utmost respect for your cou...I have nothing but the utmost respect for your courage. I, too, suffer from addicitons-drugs mostly; however, I was bulimic for over 25 years (my mother says it's because I wanted my cake and eat it too!), so I know what you are talking about where food is involved (and I think our mothers have a little in common as well). My bulimia ended when I lead a meeting at the ABC club where I opened up and shared everything about my problem. I really spent the best 6 months of my life in recovery. I miscarried and stopped my meetings and now I'm right back where I started from-kind of. I have also been diagnosed as bi-polar so my world is just a big up and down cycle of looped frenzy. Any ways, enough about me-I just wanted to express to you (because I have been there myself) that I know how hard those sorts of things are to write about and felt that your did a wonderful job (does that make sense?). I hope you continue the good work-it seems you're on the right track. I hope that you keep writing-It's inspiring to me. Take care of yourself, Bobbie, you're worth it!!<br />Sincerely, AngelaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com