two women's prayers have touched me within the past day and i need to mark them here:
Where is that place I can rest
Lay down the things that weigh so heavy
I know you say you are that place
Help me believe you Lord
Please come to me, I can't even take one step
I need a place to fall, and find some peace again
Sometimes my mind goes down these roads
Places I am not meant to travel
Soon I'm a prisoner of fear
Who will come to my rescue (chorus)
I find these vacancies within
Making me feel so small and hollow
But if you touch me I will heal
And redemption will follow (chorus)
Some Peace Again, Gina Praino
O Most Powerful One,
O Indwelling One,
I have no words to bring you into my heart;
for already you have emptied yourself into my life.
You came uninvited.
You are here.
But I am afraid to reach out and touch you.
I am afraid of falling in love.
Don't you see that if I fall in love
I have have to surrender to your embrace.
I will have to let you love me as I am,
with all my imperfections.
I will have to give you my will.
O God, I love my own will!
I am not ready to give it up.
I stand at this east window each morning yearning for you.
I yearn for you just as the sun yearns to rise.
My soul too, has sunrises,
but they aren't seen by the world yet.
I keep my rising inside.
In spite of my struggle to keep it inside,
I almost burst with you God, each day.
What would the world think if I rose?
If I rose, I could never be my shallow, surface self anymore.
If I rose, some people would not like my colors,
and so I keep this lovely color inside.
I am afraid to rise.
I am dying of yearning to rise.
I am dying to come home to myself.
It is the same as coming home to you.
can you see that this yearning is pure prayer?
Can you see that my yearning is a golden sunrise?