Monday, September 29, 2008

a light in the darkness

i can hardly begin to tell you now having no expectations this weekend led to one of the most enjoyable times liam and i have ever experienced together. on friday he saw the therapist - all on his own, scheduled without my involvement and he told me that afterward he began to understand and admit that there was more to what i was seeing than he wanted to acknowledge. he will go back in two weeks and shared much of the connections he is making.

i think that initiative allowed me to trust him again and be open to whatever this weekend had in store for us. and oh my what a weekend. it surpassed even what my imagination could have constructed. holding things with open hands and no expectations helped me so much to be present to what happened instead of comparing it to something in my head that wasn't happening like i imagined.

the spa was glorious (although it never crossed my mind that i might have a male masseuse - it definitely freaked me out for a couple of minutes and then i just finally relaxed and enjoyed it) the hotel is old world charm and our room was glorious. we walked in to a surprise gift basket filled with things only our closest friends might have known we loved (and none of the things they knew we wouldn't enjoy like chocolate or alcohol) the card was not signed, so our secret angels wanted their anonymity protected. all in all i just felt so much love, comfort and joy. i know that so many of you were praying and i continually felt buoyed up throughout the weekend.

so many times we just looked at each other and giggled that it could be so fun and care free at this stage of our lives. i am still amazed.

thank you again for your words, thoughts and prayers. it truly was a celebration.

7 comments:

Judi said...

how wonderful to get away and have such a lovely time together!! a gift from friends and from God :-)

i'm sorry it's such a struggle... but it sounds like liam is about to take some important steps? will be hoping and praying for you.
judi

wilsonian said...

:)
Woot.
Hope this carries over...

Anonymous said...

Yeh!!! I'm happy for you guys.
Mich

Anonymous said...

oh, i'm so happy for you all that you had a good weekend away! we, too, had a fun celebration. i'm grateful. -h

Sarah Louise said...

oh a spa does sound wonderful. and that liam took the initiative to go to counseling, what a gift.

smiling for you.

:)

gracie said...

Yes!! Big smiles for you here :)

Deb said...

Woo-hoo!! I'm so happy things went so well. There really is something to living life without expectations.