Thursday, April 12, 2007


i have made two amends today by email - the people involved are too far away to do face to face. i have one more to make today and then a phone call to clear the decks with a friend locally.

i am using the anxiety i'm having about the phone call to spur me on to making the amends i have set aside for months (years for one) and it's working. instead of eating the anxiety i am pouring the energy it gives me into moving foward and working my program.

this past week has been full of massive ah-ha's, answers to prayers and revelation. the penny dropped yesterday on a stalled area between liam and i - and the revelation truly felt miraculous. the images and ah-ha's we had could only have come from god - answers to about a dozen questions we have had - it was like a curtain lifted and we were given insight into some really destructive behavior we both have that has been foiling intimacy, healing and recovery.

now the work begins - but at least we have a starting point.

it feels like the logjam has been freed for me - like a hinge has turned and opened a door that has long been stuck shut. i have answers to questions and prayers i didn't know i was even asking.

resurrection is happening in places that have long been dormant and dead. spring is arriving and life is being made new. it's terrifying, emotional and wonderful.


judi said...

how cool, bobbie! i just love it when those log jams move!!


wilsonian said...

What good news! I have much to learn about re-directing energy... and using it for positive means.

Thank you sensi ;)

Friar Tuck said...

Beautiful picture. Good to hear about how you are growing.

Sarah Louise said...

ooh, I feel the logjam slowly coming through my life too. s-l-o-w-l-y, but that's better than being stuck.