Monday, July 18, 2005

get outta dodge

this intolerable heat has sucked every ounce of the small bit of energy i had to pack and get out of town. i'm so far behind and we haven't had one rain storm in a week to break this nasty heat and nearly 100% humidity we've been battling. it's oppressive - i'm really sick of it. i hate packing on a good day - today it's just so overwhemling.

i've been so strong and so optomistic and pushed myself and every ounce of that energy and will power seems to have just disappeared... finally when i need it for myself...

i have to admit that there is fear and anxiety about being gone - that we'll have no idea what is going on here, and that it will be so easy to spin any progress towards the real truth back into the great hole that the apathy and busyness that has created this mess in the first place.

sigh. why can't it just be over or just a tiny bit easier?

if we do ever managed to get packed we'll be in minnesota for the next week. i have no idea if/when i'll get near a computer. please know i'll miss you all and you'll be in my prayers.

have a good week.

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